Saturday, November 22, 2014

Christmas Spirit - I've Got It!

Bing Crosby - he's got that magic touch. I've got the Christmas Spirit!

Monday, November 17, 2014

My Christmas Wish

It was cold, wet, and rainy today. The rain is about gone, but the cold is here for a few days and getting colder. People delighted in telling me today that it would be 19 degrees in the morning. I think they are wrong, I think it's only supposed to be 24 -and 19 the following morning. But at those temps - 5 degrees won't make much difference in how it feels when I go out to the car.

I feel a sense of panic trying to creep up on me in spite of the plans I made earlier about how I would approach the holidays this year. Thanksgiving is next week and I don't have a menu made, or even know for sure who is coming and when lunch/dinner will be. And then it will be Christmas.

Last year I felt like I missed part of Christmas. The mood didn't seem right, and I hate feeling like there is a checklist to be gone over and success means checking all the items on the list. I want to enjoy, revel in, embrace the holidays. In spite of my intent - it's hanging around the edges threatening me again.

I know the "Reason for the Season" and also the "true meaning of Christmas" - but at the risk of sounding shallow, selfish, and unreasonable - I want more.

I don't need stuff. But I want my family to want to be together. I want my children to come give me hugs unexpectedly, to know what kind of scent I like, I want to know what they want. I don't want to give them money for Christmas. I want everyone to like what I give them and to know they like it. I'm not talking about spending a lot of money on people (that's just not going to happen this year), but to connect with each other with fun and pleasure. I want everyone to set aside their own pet peeves and at least fake it in front of mom. I want grace and mercy to abound. I want everyone to give everyone else the benefit of the doubt. To assume the best.

Now, lest you think my family is a big, brawling, hate-mongering, fighting bunch - I need to explain that is not so. They are sweet, loving, and for the most part play nice with each other when they are together. The problem is . . . mom (me) knows too much. I know what drives each of them nuts about the others. I know what actions, what conversations, what attitudes are often triggers for others. I know who's stewing under the surface, I know who thinks the other one is being rude, I'm sure there is plenty I don't know - but I know plenty. And I feel responsible for it all.

I want to fix it all - even when I know that is not in any way either my responsibility, or even possible for me to do.

I can't make any of this happen. But I know what I can do. I can do all the things I want others to do. I can assume the best of others. I can set aside my own pet peeves. I can choose to let grace and mercy flow through me. I can act nice even when I don't want to. I can make the extra effort to make someone else happy.

My Christmas wish is to be the person I'd like others to be. I think it just got a little warmer . . .

Saturday, November 1, 2014

Friday Night Lights

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My husband and I just finished (this wet, rainy, Saturday morning) watching the series "Friday Night Lights" (we have developed a habit of finding finished series on Netflix and watching them in whole). I remember when this show was on "live" and I didn't watch it. Probably because I mistakenly thought the show was about football and Texas. Now, to clarify, it IS about football and Texas, but so much more. I almost quit after the first two episodes because it seemed like it was just football, teens having sex, and drinking - but we decided to give it one more episode and from that point on we were hooked.

There are multiple story lines, but the central one always comes back to Coach Eric Taylor and his wife Tammy. Their commitment to each other, their family, to helping teens - it was all very inspiring. The ending of the series was very satisfying, which doesn't always happen.

"Clear eyes, full hearts, can't lose" If you haven't seen it - I recommend it. There's plenty in there to make you think.
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